but time after time it's just so hard to keep those memories intact.
they always come back and strikes when loneliness knock down the door.
you see,
just so you know, all those wake up call.
I woke you up, but did not enlighten.
just so you know,all your notes that you keep, I sometimes read it.
knowing your words, those warm thoughts that I've never got a chance to hear.
just so you know, I tried hard not to scroll down contact names.
I'm so afraid to see your name in capital letters.
such a long time.
i'm lost.
and i'm scared.
realized that i'm still keep on trading water.
